The Heart Speaks in Whispers

Sooooo I hope you have enjoyed the pieces of the soulmate story I have posted. Since I have finished the last part, I decided to post them all together in one post so you can just read straight through without having to click on different posts.
Please leave your thoughts in the comments below. I would love to hear some feedback on this short story. I have worked on this for a long time but I’m sure there will be a few mistakes that slipped through.
Please enjoy!


One and Only (Part I)
It was an interesting concept, one he never really questioned. Not until recently to be honest. The idea of having words tattooed on your body… words he didn’t choose, in a place he didn’t want, and he cannot remove. They’re just words, right? Well, no. They’re words that someone else will say.
“Are you okay?” 
That’s the phrase that wrapped around his forearm, from his wrist to his elbow. How many times has he heard those words? None of them were the right ones. How many times could he bump into someone and they ask him those three words? How many times must he be clumsy and fall over and someone asks those questions… how many times!? It’s so frustrating. Was he going to be one of those people who never ran into their soul mate? To never hear the right person, utter those words?
Besides, what will happen when he does? Is there a feeling? Do the words go away? Do they glow? He doesn’t really know because no one seems to really know how to explain what happens when it happens. He dated this one girl for a long time, she wasn’t the one and he knew it. Those weren’t the first words she said to him and he didn’t say her words.
If he was honest, it hurt when she found her soul mate and left him. Well, it wasn’t as bad as that, but it felt like it. They dated all through college and then she suddenly met the guy, and he supposed it wasn’t their fault that they found each other. It hurt, and he wanted to make it work but why would he deny her her soul mate just because he wanted her? Was it selfish? He wasn’t sure then and he wasn’t sure now.
When would it finally be his time?
He continued to walk through the grocery store, he had his mind-set on buying some junk food, it was going to be a night in with video games, movies and food. His mind was on other things, he thought about his parents and how in love they were, their soul marks matched. His older sister was getting married to the person who matched her soul mark, was he going to be the only one not finding his soul mate? He turned the corner and without realizing it, he knocked right into someone, their shoulders collided so hard that he stumbled back into the shelves behind him.
“Seriously?” He steadied himself, but his side ached. Great. Just great.
“Are you okay?”
There it goes again. Those same three words… wait…his arm tingled. What just happened? His dark brown eyes snapped up to the person he knocked into and he couldn’t help but to stare. She did the same. It was like everything around them came to standstill and it was just the two of them in the room. Her eyes were a light brown, her skin was a beautiful shade of brown, like it was bronzed by the sun. Her hair, curly and large, was styled into a fro-hawk. She wore dark jeans, and a blue tank top. He couldn’t help but catalog everything about her. She was beautiful. She was perfect. He felt it. It had to be her. He also understood why no one could ever tell him what it felt like to find the one. How could he ever explain this?
“Um…” she started awkwardly. He blinked quickly and pulled himself from his stupor. What does he say now? What should he say now? He scratched the back of his head and she moved closer to him, her hand touched his arm. “Hello?”
“Oh yeah! Sorry, yeah I’m good.”
“Are you sure? We hit each other pretty hard, you went back into the shelf.”
“Yeah no, I’m mean, yeah. It hurt. But I’m good. Nothing I can’t handle.”
She smiled. It was perfect. “Okay, well that’s good then.” She gathered the things she dropped and started to walk away.
As she moved, he spotted it on her shoulder. The beginning of the word ‘seriously’. It looked like “Ser” in an interesting script. It was his word. It was her.
“W-wait!” The young woman froze her shoulders hunched. She had to know. Right? It can’t be one-sided can it? He walked over to her and faced her. Her eyes were wide, she HAD to know. He refused to believe that she didn’t. Those brown eyes looked up and the feeling he felt, it intensified. He wanted to reach out and hold her, to kiss her, to know her. Why would she walk away without even trying?
“I can’t do this.” She said. Her eyes shifted away but he wanted to gaze into them forever.
“What are you talking about?”
“You know what I’m talking about.” Her voice was a whisper. He knew exactly what she was talking about.
“Can we at least talk about this?”
She shook her head. “There’s nothing to talk about.” What should he do? Get on his knees and beg? Just when he thought he would never find her, she shows up. In the grocery store. On the yearly anniversary of when his girlfriend told him she found her soul mate and couldn’t continue their relationship. The poetry and irony of the situation was not lost on him.
“That’s not true and you know it.” He gambled and lifted her chin to look at him. He could feel the fear radiating from her. “We’re not required to get married right away. We don’t have to do anything now.” He released her. “I just want to talk.”
She released a heavy breath. Please think about it. He begged silently. He just wanted to talk.
He almost broke out into a large grin, he wanted to but he didn’t want to freak her out any more than she already was.
“Thank you.”
He waited for her patiently outside once he purchased his items. His insides were buzzing with anticipation. He didn’t quite know what he was feeling, but he was sure it didn’t mean they had to love each other right away, they still had to get to know each other. He felt something though.
“Oh, you waited.”
He pushed off the bike rack and walked towards her. “Yeah, I didn’t want to overwhelm you.”
“Well… can I see it?”
“Huh?” She arched an eyebrow. “Oh! Yeah.” He pulled up his sleeve and showed her the script on his forearm.
“Wow. How many times have you heard that?”
He laughed and pulled down the sleeve. He shook his head trying to think the amount but there was no way. “Too many to even count.”
She nodded.
“I’m Michael by the way.”
“Theo. Well Theodora but Theo.”
Interesting name. Must be a family one. It suited her. He nodded and then the awkward silence set in. He wasn’t much of talker on the best of the days, so this was torture. She seemed to be much more of a social butterfly, but he could see the awkwardness in her as well. He wanted to ask her if she wanted to go someplace where they could talk, but…at the same time, it was so weird. It’s just like meeting her and asking her out. Get it together. Right. He could do that. So, he took a deep breath.
“So, about this whole soul mark thing-“
“I have a boyfriend.”
Falling Fast (Part II)
It was always there, as far as she knew. Her memory only put it back to about twelve years old when she first noticed it. As a little girl, she knew about the words on her shoulder-blade, but she didn’t know the meaning until she was older.
That was what was written in an interesting scrawl on her shoulder-blade. She didn’t know what it meant, until her mother explained it. Her parents were soul mates. They met in college and have been together ever since. Their words matched. Her mother’s soul mark was on her lower back, a place she hated by the way, you’re pretty when you yell. It was the first thing her soul mate said to her after he accidentally hit the back of her car. She got out and said Are you blind!? and those words were printed on her father’s leg.
Neither one of them could truly tell her how it felt after they said their words to each other. Her parents couldn’t put it into words, so she didn’t know what to expect. All her life she heard people say “Seriously” in various ways, but none of them were the right one. She never had a feeling that she couldn’t explain. She had friends who found theirs, some in high school, which put a whole new meaning to the phrase “high school sweethearts”. She wasn’t jealous, but she couldn’t help but wonder what would happen if she never found her soul mate. What if instead she fell in love with someone else whose words didn’t match hers? Would the words go away?
They didn’t.
When she met Steve, they had a great conversation and hit it off right away. They talked more, spent more time together and she found herself forgetting and ignoring those words on her shoulder because as far as she was concerned, she found her soul mate. She loved Steve. He was a good man. Smart, had a stable job, a car and ambition that he pursued. Two years they dated, they often talked of moving in together and she barely thought of her words.
Every now and then, someone would say Seriously? and she would freeze thinking it was for her, but it never was. She moved on. Fate would not dictate to her who she had to love and who she could be with. No. She made her own future.
At least until she slammed into the body coming around the corner in the grocery store. She was looking for some goodies, she and Steve had a reservation for dinner and then a movie later. It was going to be a good night. But fate apparently had other plans.
Crap! She dropped her items. She scrambled to pick them up while glancing up to address the young man.
“Are you okay?”
Her shoulder tingled, like someone just barely caressed it. Her eyes widened as she looked at the guy who stumbled into the shelves behind him, her items forgotten. What…? His dark brown eyes snapped to her face and she couldn’t help but to stare. He was tall, his skin brown like coffee, hair cut short, but she could see the curls. He was well dressed even though he seemed to just be grabbing goodies himself. A nice shirt, with dark wash jeans, a jacket. He was handsome. He was perfect. She could feel it. It was him. It had to be. Now she understood why her parents couldn’t tell her what it felt like because it was like nothing she ever felt. How could she ever explain this?
She yanked herself out of her stupor. She had to. “Um…” he continued to stare. What should she say now? So, she moved closer and touched his arm to get his attention. “Hello?”
“Oh yeah! Sorry, yeah I’m good.”
Those dark brown eyes blinked rapidly as he seemed to get himself together. He wouldn’t stop staring though and she found herself…curious. She wasn’t uncomfortable, but she wasn’t comfortable either.
“Are you sure? We hit each other pretty hard, you went back into the shelf.”
Her eyes flickered to the shelf behind him, though he hit it pretty hard, nothing too bad happened. Nothing that would cause a bad reaction from an employee.
“Yeah no, I mean, yeah. It hurt. But I’m good. Nothing I can’t handle.”
She smiled at his awkwardness. He seemed to be the type to not say much, he seemed to be someone who observed, which was clear due to how much he stared. But she couldn’t fall into this. Steve. If she was honest, she could have stared into those brown eyes all day, but… Steve. He was good. She told herself. He’s a good man. She thought of his face. His darker skin, bald head, which she always teased him about, his strong arms… Steve.
“Okay, well that’s good then.” She quickly grabbed her things and forced herself to walk away. She would run if she could. She couldn’t deal with this. Nope. She wouldn’t. Fate would not force her into anything, no matter how much her stomach may twist into knots, or how her heart feels like it’s aching. Nope.
“W-wait!” She froze. It was her words. He saw them. He had too. She didn’t even think to look for his words, because she knew. She felt him walk closer, he stood before her and she refused to look at him. If she looked at him, she would fall deeper, and she didn’t want too.
“I can’t do this.” She said. She looked away. She couldn’t do this. Steve.
“What are you talking about?”
“You know what I’m talking about.” She could only muster a whisper.
“Can we at least talk about this?”
No. They couldn’t talk about it. What was there to say? Nothing. She made her own fate, she was with someone else. But she couldn’t help but to think of what would happen to him if she refused to accept this. Now that he knows, would he just be… alone? She shook her head.
“There’s nothing to talk about.”
“That’s not true and you know it.” She felt his fingers touch her skin, she tried not to shiver at the electricity that occurred from his touch. He lifted her chin and he made her face him. She could see it in his eyes that he wanted to talk. “We’re not required to get married right away.” MARRIED?? Now she really wanted to know all his thoughts. “We don’t have to do anything now.” He released her. “I just want to talk.”
After a moment of silence. She couldn’t think of anything else to say that would refuse him. Besides, she wanted to talk too.
“Thank you.”
She went through the store to get the rest of her things. Now her mind wouldn’t stop buzzing. What happens now? Gosh. She was losing her mind. What was she going to do? Part of her hoped he went home. But he didn’t.
“Oh, you waited.”
He leaned against the bike rack near the entrance of the store. When she walked over, he pushed off and came towards her. She felt her entire body stiffen with anticipation.
“Yeah, I didn’t want to overwhelm you.”
Too late.
“Well… can I see it?”
“Huh?” She arched an eyebrow. Come on. He obviously saw hers. “Oh! Yeah.” He pulled up his sleeve, and she could see the script on his forearm. That looked just like her handwriting. Is… do the words match the handwriting of the soul mate? She needed to see his handwriting.
“Wow. How many times have you heard that?”
If he only knew how many times she’s heard “Seriously?”
He laughed and pulled down his sleeve. He shook his head and it seemed like maybe he was trying to remember but it was a loaded question. He couldn’t possibly remember.
“Too many to even count.” Right, that makes sense. “I’m Michael by the way.”
It was perfect. Everything about him was perfect. She wanted to know how his arms could feel around her. No! Steve!
“Theo. Well, Theodora but Theo.”
He nodded, and it got awkward. Theo shuffled her feet, unsure of what to say next. Perhaps it was time to go. She needed to get back home to get ready for tonight. But he had something else to say.
“So, about this whole soul mark thing-“
“I have a boyfriend.”
It came out before she could stop herself. Steve’s name was lodged in her throat and she couldn’t not tell him… Michael, that she was already with someone. She loved him. Her thoughts were like a broken record today, she would not let fate tell her what to do. She felt bad for Michael, but she loved Steve.
His eyes widened in shock but at the same time, she could see the resignation on his face.
They stood in silence, brown eyes staring into brown eyes. A connection between them that neither could truly explain or deny. What were they gonna do?


Hello Heartache (Part III)
How did he even get so lucky? He didn’t have an answer and he was sure that no one could answer that question for him either. He had the most beautiful girl in the world by his side, she loved him, even though fate said they were destined to be with another. That didn’t matter. The words printed on the inside of his arm didn’t matter. He found love on his own. She was beautiful.
He remembered the day he met her.
There was a used bookstore he liked to frequent. They often had great stuff in there for a cheap price, and he liked things that were good quality and cheap. He was looking at their book selection when he heard someone humming in the next stack. It was just humming, everyone could hum, at least in tune, but he still chanced a look. He acted like he was moving into the aisle to check out the shelves, but when he saw her, he was immediately taken.
There she was, with headphones in, her hair out in a curly afro, intensely reading a book. He could barely see the cover, but she was into it. Her head bobbing along to her music every now and then. Everything about her drew him in. He moved a little closer, hoping to see what she was reading; his hazel eyes shifted slightly to catch the title of the book. He couldn’t see the cover, but he could just make out the title printed on the top of the page. A throner? Nice.
“Winter is coming.” He said aloud, moving a bit closer to her, enough where he wouldn’t freak her out, but enough for her to know that he spoke. She noticed him, and with an arched eyebrow turned her head towards him.
“I’m sorry, what?”
Um, maybe her headphones were too loud. He nodded towards the book in her hands.
“Winter is coming.”
She glanced at the book and it took her a minute before she laughed. It was a beautiful sound and he was already into her. Her brown eyes looked back to him, a twinkle in them… her smile though, wow.
“Yeah, it sure is. I can’t take it already.”
“You read the books?”
“No, not yet. I’m buying some of them today. I was reading the first chapter. I watch the show though.”
“Me too. This last season, man, it killed me.”
“I know right! I cannot believe they ended it with Jon’s death. I’m so upset right now.”
He watched her as she spoke about the show in an animated fashion. She was obviously very passionate about it and it showed, in her facial expression, in the movements of her hands and the speed of her words. He was locked into watching her talk. He could do that all day to be honest.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to talk your head off like that.” She said with an awkward chuckle. She closed the book and moved to lift a stack off the shelf. It was the second and third book of the series. He hadn’t read them before either, but he did have the first book on his desk. He’d been meaning to read it since the second season of the show. He was slacking. She was already ahead of him.
“No, it’s not that. I just never met anyone who loved the show like that.”
“Oh yeah. It’s great. I can’t wait to see how different it is from the book.”
They stood there and talked for a few minutes. He honestly lost track of time. It was interesting to say the least and he enjoyed talking with her. She was animated, opinionated and passionate. It was kind of funny at how easily they fell into this kind of easy conversation. He never really talked with a woman this way. He found himself wanting to keep in touch with her. He never wanted to leave her presence. She was mesmerizing.
Later, he asked if she wouldn’t mind joining him for a sno-cone. It would be his treat. He was ecstatic when she accepted. As they talked, he couldn’t help but notice the scrawl on her shoulder. Oh yeah. He always forgot about these damn things. He saw the beginning of the word or phrase. “Ser”. What was the first thing he said to her?
Winter is coming. 
Damn. He wasn’t her soul mate. But they were perfect for each other. He could feel it. At least he felt something special. He had no idea how it would really feel when he finally met her, but this had to be close.
Yeah, he thought about that constantly. The day he met her. It was supposed to be a special night tonight. They were going to go to dinner and then a movie and just spend time together. They’d been talking of moving in together, well, he talked about it more than she did, he was ready for it, but she always had a reason as to why they should wait.
He checked his watch. It’s been a while since she went out to get groceries. It’s almost been an hour. He hadn’t heard from her, and even when he called, she didn’t answer. Was everything okay?
Those words popped into his head. No. Surely, she would have said something if someone said those words to her, at least to the point where it wasn’t just a regular question. But if he was honest, he already knew who his soul mate was. He met her. He was jogging, and she was walking her dog. He watched as her dog spotted a squirrel and took off after it. The leash was yanked from her fingers. She called after her dog, but he was quicker and went after it.
He managed to grab the leash and calm the dog down. He always loved dogs and this stranger’s dog took to him immediately. She jogged up to them, her face scrunched in irritation.
“Cute dog.” He said with a grin, as the dog continued to lick his face and enjoy his rubs.
“That damn dog.” She said with a light laugh, kneeling next to him to scratch behind her dog’s ears. That damn dog. It was his words, the ones on the inside of his arm. Shit. He looked at her and she stared back at him, the dog between them panting, probably with a pleased expression on his furry face.
No. No. No. NO! His insides twisted, it almost felt a little painful considering what he knew. There was a sharp intake of breath, but whose it was, he didn’t know. They just stared.
“It’s you.” She finally breathed out.
No, it’s not me. He wanted to say to her, but something inside stopped him. What was going on? After all this time, NOW? He’s with Theo. He loves Theo. They play video games together; most times she hogs the controller and he swear she cheats when they play Mario Kart. They watch Game of Thrones and Supernatural together. They go to the movies together. It’s Theo, even without their matching soul marks.
Her expression killed him because he knew, he knew he was going to shatter whatever fantasy her brain and heart cooked up.
“I’m sorry.” He said.
“What do you mean? It’s you.” He watched as she removed her shoe. Her sock followed, and he recognized his own slanted handwriting on her foot. Cute dog. It was right there on her foot. He stood up. She followed. “Wait, please.”
“I can’t. Look, I know what this means but I have a girlfriend.” Her eyes widened, and he turned away.
Electricity surged through his body when he felt her hand on his shoulder.
“I- I’ve been waiting for this my whole life. To find you. For you to find me and you’re telling me you’re going to ignore this?”
“Didn’t you hear me? I have a girlfriend and I love her.” He said firmly. As far as he knew, Theo hadn’t found her soul mate, nor did she ever mention the word on her shoulder. Theo was always determined to make her own way. She marched to the beat of her own drum and he admired that in her. He wanted to be like that. He needed to be like that.
“I can’t.”
He shrugged her hand from his shoulder and he started to walk away. He didn’t understand it. His parents warned him when he met Theo that this might not turn out very well. Soul mates were hard to ignore once found and though it’s happened before, though people never find their soul mates, it’s not impossible to be happy with someone else. They were still human after all.
“Please…at least take my number.” He could feel the worry in her voice. What would happen to her if he refuses to even acknowledge their connection? Would she give up? Especially since she’s been waiting for this forever. He hated to be a disappointment.
He found himself looking at her contact information in his phone.
Ebony James (704) 931- 8979
He never reached out to her; it was the only viable solution to keep himself from falling in love with her. He even refused to give her his number but for some reason, his mind wouldn’t let him stop thinking about Ebony. Why today of all days?
Steve jumped up from the couch hearing her voice come through the front door. He calmed himself down before casually walking into the kitchen where she was busy putting things away. He leaned on the bar counter watching her. Something was wrong. Something was off. She wasn’t buzzing with energy like usual. Instead she was reserved, something Theo never is.
“Hey, what took you so long. You were gone for nearly two hours.”
“Yeah. I got caught up.”
“Is everything okay?”
She stilled, her back to him, the door to the freezer open. Something was wrong. The nagging feeling in his gut continued to build and he felt like it wasn’t going to be good, whatever it was that she wanted to tell him.
“Theo.” Nothing. He could see the words on her shoulder. “Theodora.”
She reacted to hearing her full name. He heard a heavy sigh be released before she turned around. Her eyes held a weight in them, her energy was off, everything was wrong. But he knew… he knew what happened because he felt the same way when it happened to him. She was about to tell him, but he didn’t want her too. He didn’t tell her when he met Ebony. He couldn’t.
But Theo, she would tell him. She told him everything.
“I met my soul mate today.”
When It’s All Over (Part IV)
“I met my soul mate today.”
Those were not the words he was expecting her to say. He didn’t know why but he couldn’t react. Not at first. He just stood there. Silent. Say something. But he couldn’t, he didn’t know what to say. What should he even say? He knew this day would come, he didn’t know when and he didn’t know what it would do to her and just by looking, he could tell it was killing her inside.
What should he do?
Hearing his name snapped him out of whatever he just disappeared in. He cleared his throat and took a step back trying to regain his balance. Theo moved forward but stopped herself, her eyes darting away from him. He could see on her face that she was confused. He could see on her face that she was in pain.
This is why. This is why he never put stock in the whole “soul mark” thing because of reasons like this. She’s hurting, and he knows he can’t do anything to help her, not really. This is why he admired his parents for making it through this society full of matching soul marks because they are still in love. He never knew if they met their soul mates or not, but regardless they’re together. They’re in love. He wanted that regardless of matching soul marks. He knew Theo didn’t care either, she always wanted to make her own way. So why was this so hard? Especially for her?
“Just…” He waved his hand asking her to stop. Just don’t. He wasn’t angry, not really. Steve didn’t really know what he felt. It was confusing. He turned his back on her and gripped the back of her navy-blue couch trying to stable himself. What does this mean for them? He wanted to move in together. He loves Theo. He doesn’t want to lose her to… “What is his name?”
“What?” Her voice was shaky, almost a whisper. He didn’t want to see the look on her face because who knows what he’d see.
“What is his name?”
Silence. Steve turned to look at his girlfriend. She stood there, her head lowered, her arms crossed, like she was trying to close herself in. Theo had walls up before, he worked hard to get through them, but it was like she was trying to pull them back up.
“Theodora… what is his name?”
Michael. He wanted to know what he was like. She was gone for a long time, perhaps they got better acquainted. That burned him up inside, it felt like something red-hot was trying to claw its way out of his chest. Jealousy maybe? He never thought he would feel this way. Theo looked at him, her brown eyes wet. Was she crying? Oh god, he can’t handle a crying Theo. She is always so strong, so tears were a rarity.
“Tell me about him.”
“There’s nothing to tell Steve. He doesn’t… I mean, we didn’t… it wasn’t like a full conversation. We just talked.”
She stepped towards him again and he would have moved away but he forced himself to stay. He could smell her perfume as she moved closer. The honey lavender scent wafted into his nose and it centered him. He always loved the way she smelt. The smoothness of her hands touched his arms that tightly gripped the back of the couch behind him. He watched as her hands moved up his arms, rising to his shoulders…his heart beat so painfully in his chest but he couldn’t help himself. He wanted to kiss her. Her hands moved to his neck, they rested on his face and she stood on her toes. Her full lips touched his and he didn’t know if the sharp intake of breath was his or hers.
Steve released the couch and pulled her closer to him. Her body touching his…but something was wrong. Something was off. There was an alarm going off somewhere in his mind. When they pulled away, his breath was heavy, her eyes stared into his eyes and he knew something was wrong.
“Theo I-”
“Something’s wrong Steve.” She pulled away completely, her movements frantic as she began to pace back and forth. She touched her fingers to her lips, her brow furrowed as it did when she was in thought.
“It’s the soul mark.” His voice was quiet. It was the only explanation. But why would they feel different just because Theo met her soul mate. Nothing changed when he met Ebony. Why has it changed now?
“No. Why would it be different for the both of us and not just me? I don’t understand any of this. It’s so annoying and I hate it. I love you Steve. I know I do but I just feel… so confused that I don’t know what to do.” He watched as her pacing picked up speed. Her face was full of agony and she occasionally stopped to look at him her brown eyes wide.
“No one truly understands how soul marks work Theo.”
“Maybe not but I don’t… I hate this. I hate it. When I heard my words…” No. I don’t want to hear this. “…I, I wanted to fight it. I did fight it, but it wasn’t good enough. I’m so sorry Steve. I never want to hurt you.”
“I know.”
“You know I never wanted to meet my soul mate. I just… I want to be with you. I just can’t decide what’s going on inside of me. If you meet your soul mate you’ll know exactly…”
“I’ve already met her.”
Theo stopped moving, her body rigid. She turned to look at Steve even more confused than she already was. Steve looked away. Today has been ruined. He shouldn’t have said anything, he should have kept everything to himself. He shouldn’t have asked in the first place.
“What? You have? When?”
“About six months ago.”
Theo’s eyes grew large. Steve wasn’t sure what that expression was, but he knew her mind was going through all kinds of scenarios. She stood still. She was so silent. He felt like he should have moved forward, maybe he should reach for her, maybe he should reassure her that it meant nothing. Yeah, he thought about Ebony, but not like constantly. It just happens every now and then.
“That’s why.”
What? It was so quiet that he almost didn’t hear what she said. He asked her to repeat what she said, but she finally looked at him. Her brown eyes watery once more but soft.
“Is she pretty?”
“Tha- that doesn’t… that doesn’t matter Theo.”
“Is she pretty Steve?”
He sighed. This is so painful, and he didn’t want to make it worse. Why should it matter if his “soulmate” was pretty? It didn’t matter.
The woman of his dreams stood there in front of him. Her eyes a beautiful light brown, seeming brighter because of her tears. Her beautiful brown skin always glowed from the light she carried inside her body. Her large curly hair styled in one of her favorites “go-to” styles of a fro-hawk. Her dark jeans and blue tank top. Everything about her was what he wanted. She was perfect.
But… there were times when he thought of Ebony James. It happened randomly. Not often but randomly. He remembered how she looked when he stopped her dog from running too far.
Ebony had her hair pulled back into a ponytail, it was black and straight with wisps escaping and curling around her forehead. Her skin was dark, he imagined it was beautiful in the moonlight. She had almond eyes, dark as well and a beautiful smile with full lips. She was beautiful and sometimes her face appeared, and he always pushed it away.
Sometimes it lingered for too long though.
Ebony doesn’t look a thing like Theo. But he couldn’t deny his own confusion, but he could push it away a lot easier than Theo apparently could. He didn’t know Ebony. She seemed nice, but he didn’t know her.
Shit. He’s been quiet for too long.
“Yeah, she was pretty.”
There was a sharp intake of breath, but he didn’t see anything accusing or hurt in her eyes. There was understanding, and he hated that. She was perfect and he’s sitting here upset that she met her soulmate, like she planned it.
He sighed and moved towards her.
She wrapped her arms around him and they just stood there entwined. He could feel her heartbeat against his chest, and he really wished everything before this moment could be erased but he knew it was going to be different.
At the end of the day, it’s Theo’s choice.
Isn’t it?
Thinking Out Loud (Part V)
It’d been days since he first met her.
She was on his mind every day regardless of how many times he tried to push her out.
She has a boyfriend.
Every time she invaded his thoughts he had to remind himself that she has a boyfriend.
Torture. That’s what it is. Every day he thinks about her, her eyes, her beautiful smile, the brown of her skin, the way she smelt, the curl of her hair and he knew he was losing his mind. He always saw her brown eyes, they were a rusted amber color that had to be created only for her. He remembered the way she looked at him when she realized just who he was and what they were supposed to be. Forever. Soulmates. She went through so many emotions in such a short period of time. He committed to memory every expression. He felt it as soon as she said her words and he knew she felt it too, she had to, but she fought against it. After she ran off… it kind of hurt. He didn’t want to admit it, but it hurt like hell.
His mind constantly drifted back to the conversation they had after their first meeting; it was extremely awkward. However, the longer they sat in each other’s presence, it felt natural, like they were falling into an easy rhythm. He liked that. He hadn’t had that in a while. Not even with Natalie. With Natalie, there was excitement, but she was analytical where he was creative. They worked but there were many times when they didn’t. He could see it now.
Of course, she had something to do with her boyfriend, so she left, and it was like… something inside of him left with her. He missed her, and he didn’t even really know her.
It was because of his alleged constant “moping”, that he was dragged out for a night downtown at the new Jazz club The Broken Spoke. Blake and Eric insisted that he tag along with them, it was Open Mic Night and they wanted to be there because women turn up for Open Mic Nights. He was an artist, but creative writing was not a strength besides he was more of an illustrator, a painter, a sketch artist…
“Hello! Earth to Mike!”
He blinked in surprise as Eric waved his hand frantically in his face. Blake watched him with a cool expression while Eric tried to stifle a loud laugh. Their eyes focused on what Michael doodled on the pad he always carried around. He’d been absentmindedly doodling, and he finally glanced down at his pad and immediately felt embarrassed.
“You’ve been doodling her name for weeks.” Blake murmured as he slipped his hands in his pockets.
“This is sad.” Eric said as he slid into the booth and draped his arm around his best friend. “You have to get over this.”
Blake was mysterious and “dreamy” as Natalie used to say and Eric was so cool and open. It annoyed the hell out of him. He could never be like either of them. Michael was always the reserved one, always had been. Reserved. Not mysterious.
“Look, could you at least go and get a drink? Act like you’re going to have fun? Cool?” No answer. “Cool.” Eric pushed himself out of the booth and walked off, not missing a beat in his mingling.
Sometimes he hated Eric. They’d been friends since freshman year in college and it was because of him that he got out of his comfort zone. Blake came along some time around senior year and he just mixed right in. He was quiet but apparently there was something alluring about him. Eric was the shortest of the three, but he stood tall. Michael watched as he moved over to a booth full of beautiful ladies. They flirted. Eric was brown skinned with light eyes and girls seemed to just swoon. Always the lady killer.
His eyes fell on the girl at the far right in the group. He jumped to his feet thinking he saw… but in the end, it turned out not to be her. He stood there awkwardly for a moment before taking a wary glance at Blake who regarded him with dark green eyes.
“You should go and get a drink.”
Michael plopped back down with a loud sigh. “I don’t want to get a drink.”
Blake ran a hand through his dark hair and leaned forward, resting his elbows on the table. “Listen Michael. I know you can’t stop thinking about this girl, but, there’s nothing you can do. She has a boyfriend, and, in the end, the choice is hers. Right?”
Michael wouldn’t look at his friend. Eric was charismatic while Blake was observant and seemed to just understand everything. They both knew what happened and they had different takes on what Michael should do.
“Alright.” Blake stood. Michael didn’t even remember seeing him sit down. “We’re here to have a good time. There’s good music, a cool atmosphere. Do something other than draw.” He walked away, and Michael wilted. He shouldn’t have left the apartment. He looked down at his pad, looked into the eyes he couldn’t forget and closed the book.
He forced himself to walk to the bar. It was long with three bartenders. There wasn’t a ton of people in The Broken Spoke, but it seemed to be popular as all the bartenders were busy, so he slid into a seat at the end. After a few moments of waiting, the tall bald bartender stopped in front of him.
“Sorry about that. There’s always a rush around this time. What can I get you?”
“I don’t know.”
“You don’t know in as you’re not much of a drinker or you don’t have a preference?”
“Both.” Michael wasn’t much of a drinker. He’d go out with his friends and have a few, or Eric would throw a party and he might drink but that was never a vice for him. He never knew what to order. The bartender nodded and seemed to think for a moment.
“Okay. I’ll give you something simple.” He turned around and did his bartending magic and slid a tall glass of dark liquid to him. “This is a rum and coke.”
That was one of his dad’s drinks. He tried it and it was… okay.
“Good?” The bartender asked with a raised eyebrow.
The guy moved away to help someone else. Michael sipped at his drink and watched the people in the building. Someone was singing on stage, people were chatting in booths, chatting at tables and some were dancing to the girl’s song. It was nice.
He could see Eric swaying with a leggy girl on the dance floor. He glanced around till he found Blake leaning against a wall talking with a redhead girl. Some people just had it.
“You good over here?”
“Yeah. Thanks.”
“Are you here alone?”
Silence. Awkward shuffle.
“I might as well be.” He nodded to where his two friends were. “They’re doing their thing.”
Blake was tall and long, with his dark curls and green eyes. Girls just loved him. He and Eric were opposites, but they had the same effect on people and neither one of them cared about soulmates.
“Not much of a ladies man?”
Michael turned away from his friends and leaned his elbows atop the bar. The bartender watched him with dark eyes. It was intense.
“What, you going to be my therapist now?” Michael chuckled.
“Well you know, we do do that sometimes.”
The intensity cracked when he chuckled and swiped a few glasses left on the counter. Michael always wondered if that was a real thing and apparently it is.
“Everyone doesn’t do it, but I enjoy it. I went to school for psychology. People are interesting.”
“Is that why you became a bartender? To practice?”
Another chuckle.
“Nah., I like bartending and it just so happens I can talk to people. I wear a suit and tie during the day. Not much interaction with different people.”
Michael didn’t have to worry about not having people to talk to. He worked in a museum as a tour guide on the brink of becoming an educator. He saw hundreds of people a day. He loved art and wanted to be as close to it as possible. One day, he wanted to see his paintings, old sketchbooks, original comic drawings put into a museum to be seen by people forever. He always loved the idea of “forever”.
The bartender was called away, so Michael sipped more at his drink and turned back to the crowd. Eric was now sitting at a table with three different girls. One of them seemed intrigued by him and the other two were watching and talking amongst themselves. He searched the room for a tall figure and found him talking to the same redhead he was talking to before and even from far away, Michael saw something different in Blake’s body language. Michael watched for a moment and like he could feel the stare, Blake’s green eyes cut in his direction and they were wide. He’s never seen that look before, not on Blake but in the reflection of Theo’s eyes.
Did Blake meet his soulmate tonight??
Jealousy crept through his body at the thought. At the sight. It clawed its way from his stomach through his chest and he tore his eyes away from them and he tried to push it away.
“Ready for another one?”
He jerked hearing the voice of the bartender walk up to him.
“What?” The words caught up with him and he noticed his empty glass. “No.”
“I think you do.” The Bartender mixed another drink. It seemed stronger this time.
“It’s so easy for some people.”
“What is?”
He had no clue if that was Blake’s soulmate, or if she was single, or if she was even interested in falling into that black hole that was fate. But it was the fact that someone who is indifferent to soulmates, someone who is so casual and so unbothered looked so…
“Hey.” His eyes snapped up to face the tall man before him. The Bartender’s expression seemed a bit worried. He wasn’t angry, at least he didn’t think he was. “I don’t what happened in the two minutes I was gone but get it together.”
“You don’t know me.”
“No. But you’re different now. Why?”
Michael clenched his jaw. This man was not his therapist and he didn’t have to tell him anything. Plus, it wasn’t like he was that much older than him, it wasn’t like he was this adult who had all the answers. The bartender’s eyes flickered away from him for a few moments before settling back on him.
“So, you buy into this whole soulmate thing?” Silence. “Look. We’re human and we have free will. It’s not true love.”
“Yes, it is.”
“No, it’s not.”
“How do you explain the feeling then? You must not have met your soulmate.” Forget the sip. He drank.
“I have actually.”
Michael arched an eyebrow at the bartender’s words. It was impossible for him to have met his soulmate if he was so nonchalant about it. His parents are soulmates and they were in love. They argued because they’re human, but they loved each other like they need each other to live.
“Then how can you say that? If you’ve met your soulmate then you know how it feels to hear your words and feel like every breath in your body–.”
“Because I make my own way. Just because I met my soulmate does not mean that I’m going to fall for her. She’s a stranger to me.” The Bartender rested his hands on the bar and spoke with a calm demeanor which irritated Michael. “I work in an office because it’s what I have to do but this is what I prefer to be doing.”
“So, what?” Michael’s eyes narrowed. “Are you saying that fate pushed you into your office job, but you go against it by being a bartender?”
“We choose our own path. Just because the universe says you’re supposed to do this with your life, or be with that person, doesn’t mean you have to listen.”
Ever since he was a little kid, Michael knew what he wanted to do with his life. He loved art. He did different kinds and wanted to be around it as often as possible. That’s never changed. Michael liked signs. Whenever he felt there was a sign, he’d follow it. It led him to greatness in many ways. Maybe not right away but life isn’t perfect. He ended up in the museum because he met someone randomly one day who worked there. He took it as a sign and applied. Look at him now, he’s moving up and he loves the museum.
“Maybe, but that doesn’t mean that you have to ignore it when a sign does come. People ask for signs all the time.”
“If you can’t find direction on your own–.”
“So, you’re one of those then? One of those people who just ignore it when something is put right in front of you for a reason?” Michael ran a hand through his hair at the thought. The Bartender watched him. It made him uncomfortable. Michael wrapped his fingers around his sketchbook tightly, trying to maintain the stare.
The moment broke. The Bartender pushed off the counter and turned away from Michael. He spoke to the brunette bartender who nodded and smiled. He turned back to the young artist and rolled his shoulders.
“Taking a break.” Silence. Stare. Moves around the bar to take a seat next to Michael. “So, it’s obvious you’ve met your soulmate. I can only assume that it wasn’t happily ever after for you?”
“She has a boyfriend.”
Now that he was sitting next to him, he couldn’t see his expression. Not that he really wanted to anyway. He heard the man make an understanding noise. It was quiet again. The only thing making a sound was the band playing in the background. He was sure Blake was still enthralled with the redhead and Eric was still making his way through the lounge. Here he was, sitting next to a bartender who clearly doesn’t agree with him and he hasn’t moved yet. Maybe he just needed someone who wasn’t close to him to talk with. They always say it’s easier to talk to a stranger about personal problems.
“There’s nothing you can do about that.”
“I know.” Two drinks appeared in front of them and he took one like a thirsty man in the desert. Drink. “But what happens to me if she doesn’t choose me?”
He didn’t want to end up like his aunt. She found her soulmate, according to her, the woman was beautiful and everything she wanted in a partner, but she was engaged to another woman. The woman chose to be with her fiancé instead of his aunt. Aunt Sharon was still single. He loved his aunt, but she always seems sad… would that happen to him if Theo chose her boyfriend and not him? Would he be sad for the rest of his life?  How could anyone ever measure up?
“I wish that it wasn’t like this. I’m an artist, I agonize in general,” Soft chuckle. “But I don’t want to be in pain for the rest of my life.”
“You have to make waves for your own life. I mean, what if you have to wait five years or ten years before you see her again? You make your own choices. Life doesn’t happen to you. You happen to life.”
Ugh. He didn’t even come here for this. He came here to have a good time. Well try to have a good time. He’ll probably be up late tonight sketching again. He might have to break out the big guns and cover up that hole in his wall with a new mural or something.
“This whole soulmate thing has people doing things they probably wouldn’t if they didn’t think their life was mapped out for them just because of some magic little words on their body. If we didn’t have them then none of this would be a problem.” Pause. “I think you have to just live your life man. My parents aren’t soulmates and they’re happy.”
“My parents are soulmates.”
“Good for them. That doesn’t have to be you though. Artists always make their own way. I don’t think it should be any different for you.”
Michael also couldn’t help but to think about her boyfriend. If Theo did choose him, then what will happen to that guy? He’s been in that position before where he wasn’t the soulmate and he wasn’t chosen. It hurt like hell. Michael didn’t think he was a bad guy and of course he wanted Theo to choose him but… god this is so hard.
Silence loomed over them again. How could he love someone he didn’t even know? That’s what this guy was saying. That’s what kept him from making the choice of going after his soulmate. Michael wasn’t sure if he could do that though. Even without the matching soul marks, he felt a connection to Theo, he knew he could love her no matter what.
“Hey man.” Eric sat on the barstool on his left and released a huge yawn. “I’m beat. You wanna go?”
“Where’s Blake?”
Eric waved his arm somewhere behind him without turning around to see. “He’s talking to that redhead over there. I think she’s his soulmate. I’ve never seen him look like that before.”
“That’s what I thought.” Well good for Blake. He took a deep breath and allowed himself to come down from being wrung so tight due to the extreme jealousy he couldn’t help but to feel. Once those feelings drained away, he felt exhausted.
Eric looked past him at the man on his right. The Bartender nodded at him and downed the rest of his drink.
“Steve!” One of the girls shouted from behind the counter. He made an annoyed noise and jumped to his feet rolling his neck.
“Guess I have to get back to work. It was cool talking to you man. You finished?” Michael pushed the empty glass to his outstretched hands and watched as he walked back around the counter. “Good luck in everything.”
Michael stood to his feet and stretched his limbs, he noticed that Eric was trading eyes with the brunette behind the bar. Michael shook his head and patted his shoulder.
“Come on man.”
He grabbed the back of Eric’s shirt and he stumbled back off the stool. He made a “call me” sign at the girl who winked at him. Michael shook his head.
“You okay?” Eric asked once he got himself together to catch up with his taller friend. Michael shrugged and stuffed his hands in his pockets as they moved towards the door. Blake was waiting for them with a mystified look on his face. “You get that girl’s number Blake?”
He nodded, his green eyes looking through his friends. “Yeah. Her name is Delia.”
Yep, soulmate. Michael knew because he acted the same way when he told them about Theo. Eric laughed and nodded turning Blake away towards the door. After he had a chance to get his life together, Michael smiled. He was happy for Blake. All the ladies could eat their hearts out.
Just as they got out the door, he realized he’d forgotten something.
“Oh, hold up, I left my book. I’ll be back.”
He turned back made his way back towards the bar. He narrowed his eyes seeing The Bartender standing there flipping through his book. Michael didn’t mind people looking at his work but he’d rather if he was showing it instead of them stealing looks. As he got closer, he noticed The Bartender’s eyes were intensely focused on the pages.
The Bartender had a tight hold on his sketchpad. After what seemed like forever, he looked up at the young man before him, his eyes a mixture between confusion and anger. He slammed the book down on the counter and slid it towards him. With a downward glance, Michael saw just what he saw.
Her eyes.
“Are you Michael?”
Only Forever (Part VI)
“He’s been drawing you.”
What? She frowned as she pulled herself into a sitting position. It was still dark in the apartment, with only the light from the television illuminating the tall man standing by the dining room table. He looked so rigid. She would never particularly say that he was easy-going, but he wasn’t uptight either. This posture was out of character and it worried her.
“What are you talking about?”
“He’s been drawing you.” It was a little louder this time, but the words still made no sense. “He’s been drawing your eyes and your face. The likeness-“
“Steve what are you talking about?”
He turned sharply in her direction like he finally realized she was there. He may have been talking aloud before but not directly to her. She couldn’t really see his face, but she was sure there was a crease between his eyes that appeared whenever he was distressed. He was silent again and Theo couldn’t help but to want to fill the silence, but she needed to know what he was talking about, so she didn’t.
After a few slow moments ticked by, she moved. She climbed off the couch, her feet moved across her wood floors to her boyfriend as he stood there, his body tightly coiled. Something happened tonight. She’s seen him like this before, holding tight to the anger restrained in his body. However, unlike last time, she had no idea how to soothe him because she didn’t know the problem.
She stood in front of him, careful not to get to close, even though she knew he would never do anything to hurt her. Her curls fell into her eyes as she looked up at him, his eyes staring at the ground.
“Steve.” He made an unintelligible noise in his throat and she wrapped her arms around his and pulled his body into hers. “Steve.” She felt his body shudder as she continued to whisper his name with the hope of pulling him back from whatever place he was pushed too. She didn’t stop even when she felt his arms circle her back and hold her to him. But something was still wrong because he held her like she might float away.
“I don’t know what to do.” She hummed giving him a moment to decide if he’ll continue on his own. He did. “I didn’t know who he was. He was just some kid, some artist who needed advice and we talked, and I liked him.”
“What did he do to make you so upset?” Her voice was gentle as she questioned the broken story, her hands smoothing up and down his back. He breathed into her hair and he held on tighter.
“He’s been drawing you.”
“The kid you talked to tonight?”
“Who is he?”
He was silent for a little while. The lights from the TV flickered across his face as she waited for him to continue. She had no idea who this person was. Maybe some weirdo saw her on the train and was inspired. Or perhaps it was someone she massaged before at work. Customer service allowed for her to see many people a day. She couldn’t possibly keep track of every client.
Her movements froze hearing the familiar name. It couldn’t possibly be him. She hadn’t talked to or even seen him in so long. He was an artist? Did he mention that when they spoke the first time? She couldn’t remember. Even still, the fact that Steve and Michael happened to meet? No. There’s no way the universe would do that to her. To them.
Silence. Ugh, she had to stop letting the silence overtake the moment because now it was uncomfortable. She carefully moved so she was looking up at him again.
“So?” The word hung in the air and again she waited. He huffed and pulled away from her. Cold air rushed into the space where he just stood. She wrapped her arms around herself to fight against it.
“So? He’s been drawing you Theo. That means he’s been thinking about you. The likeness was amazing.” He folded his arms across his chest. “I can’t even take his talent away because they were so good. You have to see where I’m coming from.”
“No, I don’t see. Just because some guy I met months ago, has been drawing my face and my eyes, which is a little weird if you ask me, doesn’t mean anything.”
“He’s your soul mate.”
Theo couldn’t help the twist in her stomach when he said it. When she met Michael, she was so confused, and it bothered her for days. It bothered Steve for days and she wished it never happened. They had a little bump in their relationship where it seemed like things were different between them and while they both acknowledged something was… off, it didn’t change how they felt. She loved Steve. He loved her. That wouldn’t change just because they both met the person the universe said they were supposed to be with.
“That doesn’t mean anything Steve. I’m with you. I haven’t even seen or talked to him in months. There’s no way for us to communicate.”
He started to pace, his shoes sounding heavy against the hardwood and all she could do was watch. If she was honest with herself, she understood his frustration, if she met that Ebony girl and found out she’d been drawing pictures of her man, especially after having a pleasant conversation, she would probably be in the same place as Steve. She understood. She did. But, at the end of the day, she’s with Steve. She loves Steve. Michael may be her soul mate, but she didn’t choose him.
He stopped pacing so abruptly she saw his body lurch from the impact. He turned to her, the muscles in his arms flex and his voice sounded strained.
“I know that! But the fact that he’s thinking about you! Of your face and your eyes–it’s–it’s killing me.”
“Steve, listen to me please.” The light from the television flickered across his dark skin, she needed him to stop thinking about this before it ruined everything. She ran her fingers through her curls, pushing them from her face and she gave him a gentle smile. “I love you. We know we make our own way, and we have no idea what the future holds, but in this moment… it’s me and you.” Her smooth hands held his face and she brought his lips to hers.
That moment sat in the forefront of her mind as she walked towards the cafe where they agreed to meet. She checked her watch and quickened her pace. She didn’t want to be late.
He sat at one of the outside tables, a book flipped open on the table, but it didn’t look like he was reading it. His eyes stared at the pages, but they didn’t move. She couldn’t help the smile that crept onto her face seeing him there.
“Interesting read?”
He looked up startled at the familiar voice.
“Um… it was when I was actually reading it.” He held up the book for her to see the cover. She smiled seeing it was the book she was excited about a while ago, Children of Blood and Bone. She saw it on Instagram before its release and he probably heard her mention it many times. She bought the book, hadn’t read it yet as she didn’t have the time, but it was on her list. “It’s good but I haven’t really focused on it much today.”
She sat across from him and quickly put in an order as he talked about his day. Getting his call surprised her. She hadn’t heard from him in a while but according to her best friend, he’d been doing well for himself. She was truly happy for him. Marcy was into the soulmate thing, but it never stopped her from being a social butterfly. She says she’s not actively looking for someone but if a man manages to catch her eye, she wasn’t going to ignore him. However, Marcy is ready for her destiny. Theo couldn’t help but to roll her eyes as her mind wandered through topics.
According to Marcy, Steve was busy and making moves. He’s always had big ambitions and often talked about his plans. He worked in finance but wasn’t happy in that role. It paid the bills and gave him something to do during the day, but he always liked the night life, not necessarily living in it but being the reason why people went out. The Broken Spoke was nice, but he always wanted to have his own, to be in charge and create his own way. It was one of the things she loved about him.
“What?” He said with an awkward chuckle. Theo found herself looking him over amid their silence. He looked the same, same chocolate brown skin, same bald head that she still remembers massaging whenever he had a hard day. He was strong physically and those eyes still showed so much emotion. She remembered how they always held the answers, so much passion and they meant safety for her. It surprised her that they still meant that for her.
“Oh nothing. Still bald I see.” Laughter filled the silence slicing through the fog that was settled between them.
“So, I saw that you’re in grad school.”
She inhaled deeply, sipping the water the waiter placed before her. She wondered just how often Marcy still talks to Steve. She said once before that until she met Michael, if she ever met him, she was #TeamSteve. It made sense that she might share updates. Marcy-always trying to pull people together.
“Yeah, I decided to stop thinking of getting my MFA and actually do it.” She picked at the fruit brought to her as she talked. It felt nice catching up with him. “I thought about doing it online since you know, I have a major fear of rejection and I don’t want to see people’s faces while criticizing my work but-“
“But you decided you should actually meet with people because it would get you out of your comfort zone. But then you decided to do it online anyway because it fits better in your schedule and baby steps.”
She wondered if it was Marcy who shared that information, or did he figure it out on his own?
“The fact that you even got that right is amazing.”
“Well, I know you pretty well Theo.”
“Congratulations on your bar by the way.” Marcy showed her the photos on Instagram. It looked like Steve found someone to go into business with him if the guy whose hand he was shaking in the picture made any indication. Marcy said that it was turning out nice for him.
“I’m sure Marcy probably saw,” she smiled at his knowing smirk. “But I think it’s going to be really great. It’s in a part of town where they’ve been trying to bring some creativity back and I think The Doors will help that.”
The Doors? He’s played around with the name for a while but to hear that he settled on that one left her flabbergasted.
“That’s… really good Steve. I’m happy for you. I’m glad your dreams are being realized.”
She was happy. A year and a half did him a lot of good. They walked away from each other for a reason and though it was hard to be back in his presence, she found that she was okay with how she felt in that moment.
She was forced to walk away from him once more. The conversation turned from them catching up, to him talking about them being together. He wanted to give it another try. Theo could only listen and watch him as he spoke. She could hear the sincerity in his voice, the love in his eyes and her heart lurched in her chest. It was like a caged bird wanting to break free, but she couldn’t. At least not freedom with him.
She spent a long time thinking about them after their break up. It was painful but mutual. It was his idea, but she’d been thinking about it. She’d ran into Michael a few months after the conversation she had with Steve about him and it wrecked her life more than their first meeting. The universe was cruel, and she hated it. She tried to fight it for as long as she could but as fate would have it, she started to dream about Michael. Almost every night, she’d wake up with his face at the forefront of her mind. There were even times she’d wake up in Steve’s arms with Michael’s face there. It was too much. She couldn’t take it.
The day Steve said he wanted to take a break, it was on the tip of her tongue as well. She knew it wasn’t her fault, but it felt like it. They talked for a long time that night and in the morning, through teary eyes and a growing migraine, she watched Steve close the door behind him. She missed him so much that her heart felt empty but as she got ingrained in her writing and in her master’s program, her life became full again.
She moved on.
She scrolled through Instagram as she walked down the road towards Marcy’s place. Her headphones were secure in her ear and she bopped along to the Michael Jackson. She did a little dance step to shake off any negative or fleeting feelings that tried to invade her heart and mind. Theo liked different kinds of music but there was always something about Michael.
She shook it off and matched her footsteps with the music. She saw the body moving towards her but for some reason, she couldn’t make her body move out of the way fast enough. Their shoulders collided, she grunted in discomfort at the hard contact and she stumbled backwards. She planted her right foot to catch herself before she tumbled to the ground. That would be horrifying.
“Sorry!” She said as she straightened herself.
“My bad.”
She froze. That warm voice invaded her senses. Her eyes zeroed in on the tall frame standing across from her. He stood there in his light wash jeans and dark shirt. Her eyes trailed over him as she cataloged everything about him, reminding herself just how good he looked. He was tall, his skin brown like coffee, full lips, his hair was a little longer now and the curl was more pronounced. His eyes, that deep mahogany that stared at her with what looked like disbelief.
Whatever he was wearing closed the distance between them, she could only pinpoint the faint scents of rosemary and jasmine but this… whatever he was wearing, it enticed her. It assaulted her, and she kept her feet planted to keep from moving towards him.
It was then she realized he’d been talking while she was being pulled in just from him standing there. It was so strong, and she didn’t want to fight it. The feeling was different now. Was it because she was no longer in love with someone else that this was no longer clouded? Was it because she fought against it so strongly that now it came at her full force? There’s so much she didn’t understand but she knew she didn’t care that much. She just stared.
“Sorry. I-I must have zoned out or something.” She pulled one of her headphones from her ear. “What did you say… before?”
“I said, I haven’t seen you in a long time. You… look great.”
She noticed he watched her too. Those brown eyes tracked over her body and normally she might have been offended at the brazen look, but she found she didn’t care. She wanted his hands to mimic his eyes.
“Thanks, so do you”
Theo felt in her bones that she was meant to be with him. She wasn’t against it anymore. She wanted to tell him that she dreamed of him almost every night. She saw his face at random times. They’d only seen each other three times, including this encounter, but she knew she could never forget him.
“I draw you all the time.” It was quiet, but she heard it, however, his tone did not match the intensity in his eyes. The awkwardness she felt from him in their first two meetings was long gone. She remembered Steve coming back to her apartment distraught at Michael’s apparent drawings. She thought about it constantly. She wanted to see what caused Steve’s fear and how Michael saw her.
“Can… I see them?”
Without hesitation, Michael showed her the worn, leather book she just noticed was in his hands. She took it and flipped through the first pages that held sketches of random people he may have seen on the street, people with eyes and facial features that resembled his own. There were landscapes and birds. Then… she paused, the gasp caught in her throat.
Wow. I’ve never seen myself like this before.
The sketches going forward were of her, with a few ones of nature, but they were all her.
“You’re beautiful.” He muttered moving closer to her, they were on the sidewalk after all.
“I dream of you every night.” It came out before she could censor herself. She’s had dreams where she’s walking through a large crowd, something she hates, but all the colors were drained from the people’s faces, their clothes, everything. It always made her  uneasy however, in the distance, there was a flash of color. He was always drawing, painting…something and the colors were so vibrant. It would vary but it was constant.
“I’ve never stopped thinking about you. I tried to stop because I know you were with someone else.” He took a step forward, “I met him a long time ago.” She remembered. “I’m trying to care about the fact that you’re with him-“
As he spoke, the impulse rose up from her stomach, it spread to every nerve. Her skin tingled, and she closed the distance.
“I’m not.” Before she could stop herself, her hands came to rest on his arms. Theo felt the strength in them, she slid them up to his shoulders, feeling the muscle and ridges his arms. She grazed the skin of his neck, his pulse jumped beneath her fingers. She needed him, and she hated the fact that she was falling into the black hole that was fate, but she didn’t care anymore. She didn’t. Without saying a word, Theo used her grip on his shoulders to pull him forward, her lips brushed against his.
It was electric.
Lighting reverberated through her body. His arms wrapped around her waist and he pulled her flush against his body.
Fire! There was fire everywhere. She was lost in the flames, but she was okay. This felt so right, and she wanted to be lost in him, his taste, his smell and his arms. She understood now. She loved this feeling and she wanted to continue feeling it.
She wanted to know him. She wanted to be lost in him. Michael. Theo couldn’t believe she was missing this for so long. The young woman inhaled deeply, pulling him in as much as she could. He seemed to do the same.
Theo pulled back breathless. Her mind warred against her actions. She couldn’t believe she just kissed him like that! That she was doing this! She didn’t even know him! His forehead rested against hers. His breath came out heavy across her face. Peppermint.
She shook her head, their skin hot as they rubbed against each other. “I- I don’t just kiss…”
“I don’t either but…” It was amazing. How could just one kiss feel like this? A kiss with a stranger? What did fate want her to do? Just run into the sunset with him and they’d live happily ever after? They were still human after all. Her mind tried to make sense of it all, but even the most dedicated scientist didn’t seem to understand how the universe worked. Not in this way. “Theo, I want to get to know you.”
And she wanted to get to know him.
“Me too.” His lips brushed against hers, “But-“
“No. No.” He lifted her chin, his eyes focused on hers and she found herself getting lost in those eyes. She had nothing to fear. “I know you feel like you’re being forced into something and I would never do that to you Theo.” He ran a hand through his hair, but he didn’t let go of her waist. “I want to be with you. I want to know you the way no one else has never known you. I want to know what your voice sounds like in the morning.” He caressed the side of her face, her skin tingled in the wake of his touch. “I want to be able to look at you every day and discover new planes of your face. I want you to be my muse.”
She felt her face warm at the words, however, she couldn’t help the smile that crossed her face. Theo tried to suppress the giggle, but it bubbled from her lips. It turned into a full-blown laugh. Michael’s expression turned indignant.
“I-I’m sorry. That’s hilarious.” She noticed the expression but still laughed, “I don’t mean it in a bad way Michael. It’s so just so cheesy.” The indignation smoothed into fondness.
He cracked a smile.
“Yeah,” Michael moved his arms from around her waist, “But it’s what I want.”
She could tell. No matter how lame it came off, she wanted all of that and more. Michael held his hand out to her. Theo looked at the outstretched hand, her eyes then traveled to his face and he was waiting.
Her mind ran through so many thoughts. She knew she was ready for whatever happened between them. She knew she wanted to know him, to see his face every morning, to look at him and be inspired to write. Theo knew fate, the universe, God… she didn’t know what it was, created them for each other and pushed them together when it got the chance.
Before, she wanted to make her own path in every part of her life. Theo always knew or had some idea of what she wanted and that would never change. She will still march to the beat of her own drum, but this was a part of her life that was always full of uncertainty. It always landed back on those word on her shoulder. It pulled her away from Steve, but it led her to Michael. She never realized that no matter what kind of free will she had, certain things were always meant to be. She couldn’t dwell on the how or the why but the hand waiting for her.
So, she took his hand.

Top 10s: TV Characters I Dislike (2016)

This is a Top 10 list of characters on TV that I just do (did) not like. I may not have started off disliking them but I ended up hating them, or I just always hated them. If you agree or even disagree, please leave your likes and comments below. I would love to hear from you.
CharlotteH20 Just Add Water
Oh my goodness… I hate this girl. I do not understand why she was even added. To add some competition to Cleo with Lewis? So dumb because she is so unlikeable. She shows up, already starts to flirting with him when he obviously still has feelings for Cleo and she knows it, she can see it. There was an episode where Emma tries to call Lewis, while he’s on the beach with Charlotte because they need his help, and she turns his phone off because Emma was using Cleo’s phone. I mean… who gave you the right to touch his phone? You’re not even dating him. I guess they’re dating now, and she’s all insecure about him hanging out with Cleo, she’s his best friend, they were best friends before they started dating. GAH! THEN! Lewis was going to help Cleo study for biology but Charlotte decides to intervene to make sure Lewis doesn’t help Cleo at all, she gives her all of this study work to make sure she doesn’t get any free time, so Lewis doesn’t talk to her at all. THEN! It was a full moon, and since they’re dangerous to the girls, he goes with them on a camping trip, I understand that Charlotte was a bit put out because they were supposed to hang out that night, but chick, you’ve been forcing your way into everything he does anyway, you’ll be fine if he does something with his friends without you butting it. But she throws a fit and ends up going with them. She also invites herself as Lewis’ date to an awards event he was attending… I mean what? Makes no sense. THEN! She somehow becomes his girlfriend and he just… agrees to it. He didn’t even ask her, she just somehow became his girlfriend and there was no fight from him. I don’t even think he likes her, he and Cleo obviously belong together but they’re both being idiots. Not to mention, Cleo just lets Charlotte say ridiculous stuff to her, and gives her dirty looks! JUST SAY SOMETHING!!! ARGH! I hate her!
While I was watching, all I wanted was for Cleo to go all Hybrid on her tail and punch her in the face! I WANT TO PUNCH HER IN THE FACE AND SLAP ALL THAT RED HAIR DYE OUT OF HER HAIR! *releases breath* This is an issue. I’m sure I’m not the only person who hates this character. I’m not even going to continue talking about what happened later.


Elena GilbertThe Vampire Diaries
I have not read the books yet but I kind of plan too. I didn’t start off disliking her, I actually liked her relationship with Stefan. I am NOT a Delena fan and that will never change because it’s gross, toxic and there is no real substance or chemistry there at all. Anyways, she became such a victim, such a Mary Sue because literally everyone was doing everything they could to save her. ALWAYS. My favorite character Bonnie made so many sacrifices for Elena, she lost her magic many times, she lost her mother to vampirism, she’s lost her boyfriend, who mind you, was also Elena’s younger brother, many times. She also manipulates people around her into making them feel bad to help her even if they don’t want too, because ya know, people have a choice. I don’t particularly care how she is with Damon, I think they’re worse together, I already know Damon is a horrible person, but when they’re together, they’re even worse. It always seems she’s declaring her love for him, calling him her “epic love” but she was with Stefan first (his brother) who she said was her “true love”, that doesn’t make sense. Epics usually end in tragedy. She calls people because she needs them. She’ll make stupid emotionally charged decisions that puts people in danger and she has the nerve to cry about it. Girl… shut up. I was so glad she was gone this past season, though they couldn’t let her be gone. They just had to make sure Damon couldn’t live his life without thinking about what Elena would think of him. Dude you are your own man, you are not married to this girl… get a life, grow up and be with the woman who makes you face your problems instead of making you feel bad about them and think about how to make it better for her instead of making it better for you.
Ezra FitzPretty Little Liars
Okay, listen, probably in the minority here but I cannot stand Ezra. Sure, he’s cute I guess, but it never sat well with me that he met this girl in a bar, who looks really young already (I mean I know Lucy Hale is significantly older than Aria when they were teenagers but she looks like a child), and he actually believes she’s in college. Then when we find out he’s her English teacher, they try to let it go for a while but then it’s a head dive right in there. You’re her teacher man! You are dating a minor man! I don’t care if it’s true love, you could at least wait till she turned 18! She starts off at 16 years old. It makes no sense to me, I cannot get my head around it. I’m one episode behind in the new season but they’ve been together for so long that I just ignore them. You’re an adult, why can’t you be the adult and tell this little girl that WE CANNOT BE TOGETHER! IT’S WRONG ON DIFFERENT LEVELS! Later, he just came off creepy to me, his little creepy looks, that whole thing about him having a attraction/obsession with Allison (who looks younger than Aria… I mean come on man), him writing a book about it. He is my least favorite guy on the show. He wanted to give up everything for her but she hadn’t even graduated yet. He had the nerve to try and get custody of his son who he didn’t even know, like dude you don’t even know the kid yet. I just… ugh! Everything he does, annoys me. Don’t even breathe man.


Okay, so let me be clear. There is no changing my mind on this one. I was pretty indifferent to Cas in the beginning. It was just like, hey there’s this new guy, he’s pretty cool I guess… but after season 5 when Lucifer made him explode, he should have stayed dead, I mean at least he got in a really cool line before it eh? “Hey! Assbutt!” or when he was basically the villain of season 7 and his death scene was great, it gave him his dignity back and that would have been good enough. However, I think a lot of my dislike for him came from the fans of him and of Destiel. Not all of them are horrible but I have come into contact with some horrible horrible fans of this pairing and character and it really put me off of him. You can’t force me to see what you see when I don’t. I don’t see a romantic possibility for Dean and Castiel at all, in my mind it goes completely against Dean’s character. You can’t make me love a useless character. Stop it. I’m not even going to mention that stupid trench coat scene… okay I’m going to mention it. Cas was gone for a long time and Dean brings him to the trunk of a STOLEN CAR and inside the trunk is Cas’s friggin trench coat, neatly folded and tied up with a bow. I mean… WHAT? WHY IN THE IMPALA’S NAME WOULD DEAN DO SUCH A THING!? IT’S NOT EVEN HIS CAR! I also don’t really care for the actor. That’s all I’m going to say otherwise this could get long and I don’t wanna.
Lana LangSmallville
I won’t say I despise her, that’s too strong but I did not like her. She was boring also a weak actress. The only time I actually liked her was when she was possessed by Isabelle the witch, turned into a vampire or the episode where she has to leave Clark for real because she was wearing a kryptonite suit that somehow seeped into her skin enough where if he was close to her he was affected. Sad scene but otherwise, I didn’t care about her, or any of her story lines. Her whole relationship with Lex Luthor was dumb… I didn’t understand why everyone was so enamored with her, she was pretty sure, but so boring and bland. She was always whining, always saying people were lying to her and keeping secrets but Lana was the secret master. She led Clark on FOREVER. She always said she was alone but I swear, everyone was in love with her. Chloe Sullivan was much cooler, albeit she could be annoying but much cooler.


I haven’t even finished the show so I can’t say too much but if there’s anyone in this show I absolutely despise it’s this guy and his stupid glinting glasses! The last episode I saw, I need to catch back up, is when he reanimated a lot of dead bodies, one of them being my favorite character’s father (Neji’s dad) and all I could think about was the DISRESPECT!! SUCH A DISRESPECTFUL MOVE! DISHONOR! DISHONOR ON YOU! DISHONOR ON YOUR COW!
Thea QueenArrow
This has lessened at the end of the third season but Thea is so annoying. She complains about everything. First, she is trying to be all rebellious by doing drugs etc, gets attitudes with her mom and is just being an all around brat. It’s annoying. It’s not funny, it’s not endearing and the whole set up to make her all cool and give her redemption doesn’t work for me. Yeah, she becomes part of the Arrow team which in a way, helped me to hate her less, but I still am not a fan. One of the things that annoyed me the most is that she kept complaining that people weren’t telling her the full truth and I’m like, but you keep doing stupid stuff, they don’t have to tell you anything, especially considering you are such a brat. She was upset because Oliver didn’t tell her that Malcolm was her birth father and I kept yelling at the screen for Oliver to just tell her that he literally just found out himself. It wasn’t like he was keeping this secret for years, it’d probably been a week at the most. So SHUT UP! DANG!


Jenny HumphreyGossip Girl
I actually paid her no attention when the show first started. She was just another Humphrey but it wasn’t until that she started trying to be Blair that she started getting on my nerves. Of course teenagers try to find their “group” while in school but dude, you can’t try and plot against these people when they’ve been doing it since they were in the womb. When she tried to actually take on Blair,  I remember going girl, you are going to lose and it will be brutal. It was and it was glorious. Not to mention, I hated the relationship between her and Nate, for one, Chace Crawford was in his 20s and Taylor Momsen was a teenager, I knew this and it just weirded me out. I think this is also why it didn’t continue because he was uncomfortable with it. She had the nerve to even try to manipulate other people due to her “feelings” for Nate, girl you are 14 and he is 18, shut up. What was up with her style later? I mean, I see that’s Taylor’s actual style now but… I’m personally not a fan.
Dan HumphreyGossip Girl
So irrelevant and so obvious that he’s actually Gossip Girl. That wasn’t even a mystery. He acted like he was so much better than the others because they were horrible people (which they were) but dude, you are so terrible. You literally tried to make people feel bad for their wealthy lifestyle and their choices but you were trying so hard to be apart of it while spewing pretentious nonsense. What was that whole thing with him having a threesome with his actual girlfriend and his best friend who liked him too?? That was so cringeworthy and gross. I actually didn’t mind him dating Blair because he was tolerable with her but ya know. Whatever. I also did like his friendship with Nate, and I can’t remember exactly but I feel like he did something uber shady that turned even Nate off, and Nate was the most loyal out of everyone. I mean, you turn Nate against you, you are screwed. I feel like it had something to do with that book he wrote.
The whole Humphrey family I didn’t like, their dad was annoying too.


Jo MastersonTwisted
Ugh I can’t even. She’s another one I didn’t start off disliking but ended up hating her as the show progressed. As I said before on this show, I liked the show a lot, the premise was interesting and in the beginning the characters were cool. First of all, the show was marketed to be about these three teenagers who were best friends as kids, one of them allegedly is a murderer and now he’s trying to get his life back. I mean, that’s kind of cool, not the mention the dark aspect of it, the mystery, the diverse leading cast. Lacey Porter easily being the most interesting, Danny Desai being mysterious and Jo Masterson being the girl next door which was interesting but then everything started to shift. The once amazing chemistry between Lacey and Danny got kicked in the knees and suddenly Danny is “into” Jo. Now, Jo is getting all of these romantic storylines (seriously there’s like three guys supposedly in love with her for some reason), she’s so upset at Danny and Lacey for having the audacity to be romantically involved without telling her, she is upset with Lacey for not being her friend anymore as a preteen and teenager and almost refuses to even acknowledge her attempts now… Plus she gets to be emotional about everything, she gets to rest her head on her mother’s shoulders when she’s sad, she gets to play the victim, she gets to be on screen ALL OF THE TIME, she makes everyone around her feel guilty, she whines (the actress was fine), and we’re supposed to be on her side?? I don’t know how the writers missed this one. This is one of the few times where I wish the writers listen to the vocal fans because fans were upset and voiced it. It wasn’t right what they were doing to the other two PoC characters on the show who were also leads in favor of the blonde blue eyed girl. It wasn’t fair and it didn’t help that her character became so insufferable that I pretty much hate watched the show.
I mean, I could go on and on and I soo want too but for the sake of not making this long I won’t.
Dishonorable Mentions:
Aria MontgomeryPretty Little Liars
Emily WalthamFriends
Killian JonesOnce Upon A Time
Grant WardAgents of Shield
Kim SetorriH20: Just Add Water
Axl JohnsonThe Almighty Johnsons
Rebecca SutterHow To Get Away With Murder
Prue Halliwell/Phoebe Halliwell Charmed


Bonus Characters From My Best Friend:
Mariana FosterThe Fosters
Callie FosterThe Fosters
Mayor WestFamily Guy
RogerAmerican Dad
Henry MillsOnce Upon A Time
Nathan ScottOne Tree Hill
Barbara GordonGotham
Skye (Daisy Johnson)Agents of Shield
Princess MorbucksPowerpuff Girls
EveryoneSpongebob Squarepants
Michaela PrattHow To Get Away with Murder
Nick Miller New Girl


Who are YOUR most hated television characters? Please respond in the comments below.

Characters that should NOT be together

Characters that should NOT be together

This is a companion piece to “Characters who should be together” where I think these characters should not have gotten together. They either remained together or dated but broke up but their relationship just didn’t do it for me. No bonus here.
Joey Tribbani & Rachel GreenFriends
I mean, I get why they did it but it didn’t work for me. It was too strange. They were so different, sure Joey is cute and he ended up having feelings for Rachel and he matured a little, but I cannot imagine them ever working out which is probably why it didn’t. At first, he was pining after her, which was so weird as Joey never pined after anyone, it was so out of character. Then suddenly Rachel wants to be with him and ugh… just another obstacle for Ross and Rachel (which I also don’t understand the dislike for the couple or for Ross. I mean I get it but it’s really not that bad). Joey and Rachel were better off as friends; I know it didn’t last but thank goodness it didn’t because gross.
Damon Salvatore & Elena GilbertThe Vampire Diaries
Oh my goodness, probably the couple I hate the most on this list, also the couple I hate the most on the show. It makes no sense to me. She was legit afraid of him in the beginning AND he killed her brother, there was no natural progression to their romance. It was just decided for them. Damon doesn’t love her, in the beginning, he wanted her because she looked like Katherine and because he wanted to spite Stefan. You can’t tell me otherwise because that relationship makes no sense. Why would Damon be Elena’s “epic love” but Stefan is her “true love” but Damon and Elena belong together? That makes no sense. Epics end and they usually end in tragedy. All their relationship is arguing, declarations of love and sex. They don’t sit and have conversations, they don’t know each other, they don’t love each other, they love the idea of each other. I also don’t see any chemistry between Somerhalder in Dobrev in these roles, which is weird as they dated in real life, and I also think Damon had more chemistry with Katherine, who is also played by Nina Dobrev, so it’s just Elena and Damon. I know Elena is young but I’m sorry, the sympathy goes out the door when you continue to make stupid decisions or put people in danger. It could have worked if their relationship didn’t become so dramatic. I saw in an article that Delena is like “an epic kiss-in-the-rain, die-for-you, can’t-live-without-you kind of love,” and that gets annoying and it no longer seems real but fake and forced. Whereas Stelena and Bamon are more practical because they can just be themselves as people together, instead of this couple. Damon and Elena don’t know how to be Damon and Elena on their own anymore. From what I’ve seen from some Delena fans is more focused on them together than who they are when they’re apart. That’s why Delena is a fail and I want it to never come back.


Clark Kent & Lana Lang/ & Lex LuthorSmallville
Okay, this is one is a three couple because both relationships were horrible. First of all, I could not stand Lana, she was so uninteresting, a damsel and I thought Clark was too good for her. Sure, she was pretty and kind but boring and so bland. There was literally nothing special about her. Clark had a crush on her for years, they finally got together but the relationship was boring, all of his pining came to an end but Lana didn’t seem to care about Clark in the same way he cared for her. Even later, when she came back on the show, it didn’t make sense to try and even let them try to make it work. I will admit though, their last scene together was emotional, I did cry because it was sad but I also didn’t care because they didn’t need to be together anyway. Besides, he was always saving her from something and she didn’t start fighting for herself until much later. I didn’t there was any chemistry between them, she never looked at him the way he looked at her and I think that says a lot. Maybe it was because Kristen Kreuk wasn’t a very good actress but it was one-sided. If there was anyone in high school who would have been great for Clark was Chloe, now she looked at him the way he looked at Lana. I loved their friendship dynamic but a romance between them made more sense than “Clana”.
In terms of Lana and Lex… ooo boy. Not only were they like six years apart but again, he cared about her more than she cared about him and it seemed like he only liked her because he was jealous of Clark in general and wanted to at least take something away from him. Their relationship was destructive and gross. They started trying to destroy each other, or at least cause destruction in their own relationship. Just… so much unnecessary drama and more obstacles to keep Clark and Lana apart.


Killian Jones & Emma SwanOnce Upon a Time
I’m in the minority here but here me out… I don’t necessarily dislike them together; I don’t dislike Emma or Killian it’s just… I’m kind of over their relationship. In the beginning I was fine with it because Emma deserves happiness and I don’t really think Neal was the right move anymore. Maybe back in the day but at this point in her life, it wouldn’t have worked even if they shared a child together. But once they finally got together, the spark for me was over. Emma just kind of stopped being who she was now that she’s with him. Nothing stood between Emma and her son, no one but when she was the Dark One, she broke Henry’s heart in order to save Hook. I mean… what? Why would she do that? That was so horrible. She should have let him die. I also don’t like how she risked everyone’s life to go rescue him from the Underworld, especially with Henry being a preteen and her parents having a newborn. She didn’t even fight to make them stay when before this relationship she wouldn’t have let Henry come or probably even Snow since baby Neal would need her more. I think their relationship keeps Emma from considering other people the way she used too. When Hook was granted life by Zeus, they made out in front of Robin’s dead body, it hadn’t even been buried yet. I mean… what?? Maybe I wouldn’t mind as much if it wasn’t a focal point and was a sidelined thing because I am sick of their relationship being in the forefront for no reason. A good example, Snow and David are together but before these most recent seasons, it wasn’t the only thing that was important for them, it was their love for other people, for their daughter, them needing to make up their absence to her… love was still there but it wasn’t just them and no one else. I think Emma and Killian are just repetitive now, where else can they go that keeps them interesting, refreshing and relevant without it being slammed into our faces? I personally wouldn’t have minded an Emma/Jefferson thing, that would have been interesting or bring back Sheriff Graham because that probably would have been endgame (but that will never happen… thanks stupid 50 Shades of Grey).
Chuck Bass & Blair WaldorfGossip Girl
I’m in the minority here again but look… we all know that this relationship was toxic to the high heavens. I mean, it had some great passionate steamy moments but… let’s be real. Not only are they both kind of horrible people, but Blair deserved better than Chuck (I actually didn’t mind Blair and Dan together, I just didn’t like him at all). They weren’t stable together, they were always breaking up, there was always something blocking them from being together: that swarmy prince, the car accident, Fleur Delacour, Jack Bass, and this would result in Blair dating someone else and Chuck turning to alcohol, women and drugs. SO MUCH DRAMA. I love good drama but good lord, these two couldn’t even just be in a normal relationship without something happening… she witnesses Chuck basically killing his father and now it’s a secret thing, Chuck traded Blair for a friggin hotel, and they just couldn’t move on together. Their problems as a couple didn’t help them become a better couple, it just gave them more drama. Where was the substance? For this couple to become the “face” of the show, there wasn’t anything there but sex and drama which nope does not count as a relationship. Anytime Chuck did something wrong, he would try to fix it with grand gestures, I know they’re rich but I’m sure just apologizing would work just fine. It wasn’t all bad but I don’t think that’s enough.


Ezra Fitz & Aria MontgomeryPretty Little Liars
HE WAS HER TEACHER. I just can’t get past that. Plus, he was weird, and creepy and I never trusted him, still don’t trust him and she’s my least favorite “liar”. They meet in a bar that 15-year-old Aria had no business being in, they end up making out and later see each other again in school and I will give him credit for trying to not let it happen but she is so into it that he gives in. No, as the adult, as the teacher, he shouldn’t have let it go on for as long as it did. So, because of this… anytime they were intimate just creeped me out. It doesn’t matter if it started before she became his student, the fact is that he was an adult and she was a minor for most of their relationship…gross and it does not need to happen again. I don’t care if it was in the books, end it. Kill it with fire.


Wes & RebeccaHow To Get Away With Murder
Um… hated her so much. Wes is definitely the good guy, with a hero complex, and he seems like he would be a great boyfriend but he needs someone who is similar to him. So why he ever thought Rebecca was a good match for him was stupid. First of all, I hated her too. She was so annoying, the way she talked was not cute and endearing, it was grating. They had no chemistry and their first intimate moment was edited alongside an autopsy scene… I wonder if that was a metaphor for their relationship but regardless, no. She lied to him too much, kept secrets, when all he was trying to do was prevent secrecy. A lot of their problems, or future problems, could have been prevented if she had just been honest with him from the get go. Plus, in the flashbacks, it kind of seemed like she had a thing for Laila and I didn’t mind the idea of Wes and Laurel but I know that will never happen and I’m okay with that too. Wes has enough tragedy in his life that all that nonsense with Rebecca was unneeded.
Aristotle & DanteAristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe
It was implied at the end of the book, but if you’ve read my review you get why I have a problem with this. I knew that Dante was gay and in love with his best friend which was fine but the problem came when Aristotle wasn’t given the choice himself to be gay or love his best friend. He was told by his parents and doctor how he felt even though he himself never indicated those thoughts and/or feelings. I wouldn’t have minded if it was natural, or he thought about it himself but he never did. He was told and it was just… a happy ending. Nope. Not acceptable. Relationships are natural and when it’s birthed through friendship it’s even better but this one wasn’t. It was pushed.


Sam Winchester & RubySupernatural
Ugh. I can’t say I liked any of Sam’s relationships except maybe Jess and Sarah (but I guess she doesn’t count) but not only did they not have any chemistry on screen, but the fact that he couldn’t see past his nose with her was so irritating. It had always been Sam and Dean against the world but he would not listen to his brother about her, she had been playing them from the beginning but Sam could not peep it because he was caught up in what she could do for him. It was destructive, it almost destroyed him and it just about destroyed the world. How he could have thought drinking demon blood to amplify his powers was okay and acceptable blew my mind, yeah it had its perks but you’re drinking blood like a damn vampire man… that’s red flags right there. I also didn’t like this version of Ruby, Katie Cassidy was cool but Genevieve didn’t fit into the role, so the chemistry was off, which is strange since they’re married in real life, and it wasn’t sexy, it was gross.
Jenny Humphrey &Nate Archibald/ & Vanessa Abrams and all the other random ridiculous womenGossip Girl
Long title but so true. I did not like Jenny, I didn’t like the fact that Nate liked her, there wasn’t anything interesting about her. She was a wannabe and a poser and too young for both Nate and Chace Crawford. She does eventually become her own person but she still allows herself to get sucked up into the world that he wasn’t really involved in like that and she became the same type of women he was always with. Jenny could have been something if she wasn’t annoying and didn’t turn into everyone else. Nate has always been consistent and has matured throughout but in her seasons, she lost her mind and became the very people she started trying to be different from. Vanessa and Nate could have worked, but their undoing was that Nate was in love with Serena and Vanessa was in love with Dan, not to mention, she was a stalker and pretended that she didn’t care about that world but once again, another girl gets caught up in the drama. Then there are all of the other women he was with, none of them great, but the next one who stood out the most was Sage. Nate was an adult and she was in high school… not cool and she was horrible. Worse than Jenny, just ugh, she was such a brat and for some reason he was enamored with her.
Then of course there was the slew of other women, Bree Buckley was fine but everyone else, wow… cougars, women who gave him money to sleep with them (albeit he was doing that to help his family), con artists (Ivy), boring girls (Lola), I mean I just didn’t understand what the deal was. Poor Nate was a romantic, he was always optimistic to find love but the worst women came his way and between Nate, Chuck and Dan, Nate was the most honest, loyal and best catch out of them all. It’s such a shame he ended up alone but I guess that was for the best at that point in his life.
Professor Bhaer & Jo MarchLittle Women
No… Laurie. That is all. I liked Bhaer, it was nice but man… Laurie.
Aragorn & ArwenLord of the Rings
I haven’t read the books and while I adore Arwen and their romance is beautiful… I kind of wanted him to get with Eowyn. She seemed more his equal. I’m sure Arwen was awesome, but in the films, after she saves Frodo in Fellowship of the Ring, she kind of doesn’t do anything else whereas Eowyn “I am NO MAN!” killed the witch king! I mean BAMF! They should have gotten together.

Characters that should be together

Characters that should have gotten together

This piece is just opinion. This features characters that I believe should have been romantically together by the end of their television show, movie or book. They might have been romantically involved at some point but it didn’t last because of stupid writing reasons, or they remained friends (but could have been so much more) or they never got together even though they had more chemistry but the writers forced them with another person. So this list is about 17 I think with some bonus at the bottom. If you agree, please feel free to comment why, if you disagree please comment why not. Enjoy!
Alec & MaxDark Angel
When I was watching this show on a binge, it was so awesome and it sucks that season 3 never happened because it definitely needed and deserved one. I genuinely liked all of the main characters on the show, minus a few here and there and Logan was one of the ones I disliked the most. Man, what a tool. In the first season, Max and Logan’s “thing” was fine because they liked each other, and Alec didn’t exist yet but when Jensen Ackles returned as Smart-Aleck, oh I loved his character. Sure, he was arrogant and had his moments but he was honest in who he was, and I didn’t think Logan held a candle, he was too whiny and I could not imagine him and Max actually working in the long time. Now, Alec was her match in every way, they were both Transgenics, so they both were enhanced, both knew how to fight and were badass. They also understood each other more than Logan ever could. There were a few times in the show where it seemed like the two would get together, they had a lot of “tender” moments when it was just them. The episode when Max opened up to Alec about Ben (his “twin clone” brother), it was beautiful. Then the writers tried to get Alec to date that Asha girl, made no sense, that he would stop being such a “womanizer” for some random girl. I believe he would have matured with Max because she helped him grow up over the course of the season.


Joey Tribbiani & Phoebe BuffayFriends
I don’t think this is a secret anymore since both Matt Leblanc and Lisa Kudrow stated they wanted it to be revealed that Joey and Phoebe had a secret love affair and I agree with them.  They were the “kooky” ones of the group and I think they had a mutual understanding each other that worked for a nice relationship. They had a few moments in the show that could have been a nice start to a romantic relationship with them, like the episode where Phoebe finds out her birthday is not the day she thought it was, and she says she’s never had the “best kiss ever” or “never met a person from the Philippines” and she leaves emotional and Joey follows her out, passionately kisses her and tells her he’s 1/18 Pilipino. It was so cute. Don’t get me wrong, Mike was great and I’m happy Phoebe found someone she loved enough to marry but it would have made more sense for her to be with Joey, not to mention, that whole thing with Rachel was just weird. I mean, what? I think they were closest and made the most sense to date out of all of the friends.


Damon Salvatore & Bonnie Bennett- The Vampire Diaries
I’m not going to spend a lot of time on this one, otherwise the post will be huge but I didn’t see it after first but in season 6 when Bonnie and Damon were stuck in the spirit world for most of the first half of the season, it was amazing. The chemistry between the actors were so strong that I could not believe I didn’t see it sooner. I went back to watch old episodes and old interactions between the two and yeah, it was always there, just in a different way. They hated each other in the beginning, due to Damon’s ways and him being a vampire (let’s be real, Damon is a horrible person) and Bonnie for being judgmental but she always helped him and everyone else because that’s who she was.  In season 6, they were forced to be together, got to know each other in a different way and they became best friends, to the point where he even chose Bonnie’s life over waking Elena up. Yeah yeah yeah, the writers wouldn’t stop forcing Elena into the picture enough to just let Bonnie and Damon’s relationship develop naturally. The actors even want the two characters to be together, it’s more beautiful than that toxic nonsense that is Damon and Elena. It’s interesting to see how Damon is when he’s around Bonnie, he doesn’t give speeches about “Elena makes me a better person” or how he needs her in order to make good choices, that’s so stupid. He should want to be his own person, a better person at his own volition, not because Elena guilt him into feeling bad for his choices. Bonnie doesn’t do that, she doesn’t take his crap, she tells him to face it himself because at the end of the day, it’s his choice and he must own up to his actions. He can’t do it for someone else. It just seems so much more honest with Bonnie then it ever has with Elena. Bonnie loves Damon and she knows it, and he loves her more than he realizes he does. The relationship Bonnie currently has with Enzo is just a cop out for not allowing “Bamon” to happen as Enzo is like a “diet Damon”.
Stefan Salvatore & Elena GilbertThe Vampire Diaries
In the beginning when I liked Elena, when her character was consistent, she was with Stefan. They were passionate and honest. They didn’t need to declare their love all of the time, they just knew, everyone just knew. She called Stefan her “true love” which beats out “epic love” and that showed. Stefan treated her like her own person instead of yanking her around, lying to her or trying to make her do things she didn’t choose her own (see the problem with Damon and Elena), sure he has his own issues too, but Stefan always fought for Elena and not because her love “makes him better” (which is stupid) but because they actually love each other. I don’t mind Stefan and Caroline but the passion that Stefan and Elena shared is gone. They were able to just talk, to sit and watch sunsets, to hang out in cabins and have conversations, even when they weren’t together, they could just talk with each other. Whereas when she’s with Damon, they just argue and have sex. That’s not a relationship.
Nathaniel Archibald & Juliet LewisGossip Girl
You’re probably going who? Lol well Juliet was played by Katie Cassidy, if you read my “Diminished Characters” post, I mentioned her in it. She shows up in season 4, and while her intentions were not to actually fall for him, but to instead take down Serena. They had a meet-cute and it grew from there, they were good for each other, he actually settled down and dated her, he wasn’t cheating, or flirting with other women. She was smart, and not from his world so it seemed honest and not with people wanting to destroy everyone, Juliet did seem to worry about fitting into his world, but Nate never cared about that so if she would have just allowed herself to be herself, even if she wasn’t rich like them, it would have worked out fine because they were so cute and he actually liked her. He was so hurt when he found out that she used him. It just had to be ruined all because she wanted to get back at Serena, so stupid. Nate would have finally found a good woman and finally would have stopped falling for stupid women who didn’t make sense for him to be in a relationship with but with Juliet, it could have worked.
Dean Winchester & Jo Harvelle- Supernatural
Jo was only around for a little bit of time but she was so amazing. In the beginning, it was obvious she had a crush on him, I mean he’s cute! Lol but Dean is Dean, not particularly “dating” material, however, I think he not only knew she liked him, but I think he liked her back but never got around till admitting it until it was too late. Although anytime he flirted, she would blow him off, it wasn’t because she didn’t like him but because she was trying not to get involved if he didn’t feel the same way in a legitimate manner. Dean flirts, so it’s understandable for her to want to make sure he wasn’t just doing it to flirt. In her last episode, before she dies, the look they would give each other, even though it could be the end of the world, showed that they both wished they would have taken the leap before getting to this moment. Before she died, he actually kissed her and rests his forehead against hers and it’s a tender moment, he waited too long because now she was about to die. Jo comes back later as a ghost and before she was “forced” to kill him, there’s another tender moment and it was so beautiful. She doesn’t kill him of course but it’s for the moment. I know the show is about Sam and Dean and their brotherhood and them saving the world, but it would have been nice for Dean to find someone who is his equal in every way, someone who could even tame him, not change him but get him to settle. But of course, the writers kill all the women lol so I hope Dean finds a woman who becomes his equal later on.
Harry Potter & Hermione Granger- Harry Potter
Hear me out, I have absolutely no problem with Hermione and Ron getting together in the end. I was just one of those people who read the first three books and thought that it made more sense for Harry and Hermione to date. After reading Goblet of Fire it was easy to see that it was gonna be a Romione thing which is fine, I’ve made my peace and come to love it on its own. However, I still believe it could have gone another way. Harry and Hermione fell into an easy relationship where their interactions with each other was smooth and it matured into something where they knew they could count on each other. He was always emotionally there for her, she was emotionally there for him, they understood each other, their limits and their strengths. It was even stronger during Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, when they were by themselves but of course she was emotionally distraught over Ron so I wasn’t still hoping that Harry would swoop in there lol but if Ron and Hermione didn’t become a thing, I would have loved for Harmony to happen.
Neville Longbottom & Luna Lovegood- Harry Potter
I thought this was a no brainer! At first I thought it was gonna be a Ginny/Neville thing but when it showed that Harry and Ginny were probably gonna be a thing, I thought it made sense for Neville and Luna to get together in the end. She was so weird, and he was so… Neville lol. I don’t know, it just seemed to make sense to me. I was bummed when they did the epilogue and they weren’t together.
Jason DiLaurentis & Aria MontgomeryPretty Little Liars
This one won’t be long at all, but I am not a fan of Ezra at all, and I definitely don’t like Ezra and Aria together, the worst couple on the show. I cannot believe it lasted so long. But anyway, there was a brief moment when Jason and Aria seemed to have a connection, he seemed to like her and she seemed to like him. They almost shared a kiss, then I seem to remember some drama with Ezra and his brother and then all of a sudden it was like nothing ever happened between them. Maybe it was just me, but I like him more anyway. Ezra is my least favorite guy on the show.
Danny Desai & Lacey PorterTwisted
I already talked a bit this one in Lacey’s “Diminished Character” post but this relationship barely got the chance to mature and move forward. The chemistry between the actors was amazing! So amazing that Avan Jogia and Kylie Bunbury got to be in a miniseries on Spike called “Tut” where they played lovers, it unfortunately didn’t last either but it at least happened! But Danny returned home from being in juvie and Lacey did not allow him to sweet talk his way back into her life as easily as he did Jo, she made him work for it and work he did. Any chance he got, he would seek her out, try to talk to her, when they were alone they would talk about their childhood, and all of the emotion in the eyes, especially rolling off Danny was extreme. She eventually decides to let him in and their first kiss, wow! They would talk in secret and they’d actually have conversations, they grew up together so outside of her being afraid of what people might say, they had an ease about them that showed not only were they comfortable with each other but it was natural. She liked him so much, that when someone wrongfully taped them being intimate (we never actually knew if they had sex or not, it was implied I guess) she was willing to just let it happen because she was no longer ashamed to be with him. To be seen with him. It of course went all downhill when the writers started trying to make Danny and Jo be a thing when it was never a thing, it wasn’t even believable, not to mention, they began to make Jo the lead of the show when it was ultimately about Danny so Danny and Lacey’s relationship just fell apart in order to make Jo look better. It was so dumb because the show and the relationship had so much potential.
Neal Caffrey & Sara EllisWhite Collar
I was indifferent towards Kate, I did not like Alex and Sara was the best thing ever! Her and Elizabeth were just the ultimate S.O for the main heroes in the show. Sara was sassy, she was smart, independent and took no crap, especially not from Neal. For a while they played a cat and mouse game. They flirted constantly and the sexual tension was extreme that when they finally got together I said “finally!” Unfortunately, secrets were kept and they broke up. I can’t say there was anyone else who showed up to romantically involved with Neal who measured up to Sara. She showed up again a few more times and they still obviously had feelings for each other but in the end, they did not get together, unfortunately. Too bad, she would have been good for him too as it was obvious she still loved him and cared about him, vice versa with him.
Kurt Wagner & Kitty PrydeX-men: Evolution
Okay, so I know that they don’t get together in the comics or anything, but I remember watching this show as a kid and wanting these two to date. They were such good friends. Rogue and Kurt crossed my mind too but I like her with Gambit and once we find out Mystique was their mother, Kurt viewed her as a sister so it wouldn’t have worked out anyway. Regardless, Kitty and Kurt were really good friends, they confided in each other, they worked together and anytime the team went out together, Kurt and Kitty were always paired up together. They complimented each other very well and even though I think she was freaked out by his appearance in the beginning, she accepted him. The show was about them as teenagers, but if they would have continued down the road and didn’t end, I bet Kitty and Kurt would have dated at some point. Now, I never got the chance to finish the show, it stopped airing on Kids WB so maybe the writers let them attempt a relationship that didn’t work… I don’t know, when I rewatch the show due to my nostalgia I’ll see and I’ll probably edit this part.
Jordan Catalano & Angela ChaseMy So Called Life
Teen angst!! Angela had a crush on Jordan Catalano for the longest time, he was pretty much untouchable in her mind. There’s this great scene where Sharon’s (one of her old friends) father has a heart attack, Angel knows about it and finds Jordan Catalano smoking under the bleachers, she’s crying (she’s not sure why she’s actually crying) and she walks up behind him and he turns towards her and lets her hug him to cry on his shoulder. It was so cute because it was their first “moment”. Of course his cockblocking friend (played by his older brother no less lol) showed up but still! So memorable. They only actually date for one episode but the lead up was quite good and entertaining as Jordan, who knew of her feelings towards him, just couldn’t seem to get it together to get her on board even though she already liked him. When they break up, they remain close friends, she encouraged him to do well in school and he tried, Angela suspected he suffered from dyslexia which is why he checked out during classes and didn’t want to be involved in it. After talking with Rayanne about Angela and some other boy, they drunken have sex which causes Angela to cut ties with both of them. Jordan tries to win her back by getting Angela’s friend Brian to write a love letter for him, in which he does but it was more of a personal letter. So the show ends with the implication that Angela and Jordan do get back together but it’s never said it’s so irritating! I understand why they had to break up during the season because while he realizes he’s in love with her, after listening to a sonnet in class, he pressures her to have sex but she isn’t like the girls he normally would go for which surprises him. It was all very realistic and I think it would have worked as they got older because he was already mature in his own way. He had an abusive childhood, he pretty much did his own thing, but he managed to get by. I think they would have worked out. I know people think Angela and Brian should have gotten together but I don’t think that would have worked out, Jordan has his issues but I think he and Angela would have worked things out together.
Gordo & Lizzie MaguireLizzie Maguire
Oh Lizzie, Lizzie, Lizzie… Ethan Kraft is an idiot. Gordo has always been your voice of reason, he always had your back, he made sure that you calmed down when you freaked out over teenage girl stuff and he never made you feel stupid or that you should be stupid to be with a stupid guy. Gordo has always been right there!! Thank goodness they kissed in the movie, they never actually got together but by George they should have!!
Hakeem Campbell & Moesha MitchellMoesha
It always made sense to me. Q was cool and all but I always preferred Hakeem and I know they dated for a little while but it didn’t last and when Hakeem showed up on The Parkers he and Moesha were no longer together. They were friends for a long time, really close to the point he was always in their house, she could talk to him. Sure, he could be annoying, but he just fit right in there. It made sense.
Roy Mustang & Riza Hawkeye- Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood
Oooo boy, I have no idea why they did not become official. They knew each other for years, she became a “personal bodyguard” of sorts to him, the opposite of him as she was strong and silent, they were both badass in their own rights. She could also be seen as a babysitter towards him as well as his conscious. I seem to remember them flirting a little but nothing to the point where it became official when it should have!
Hyuuga Neji & TentenNaruto
Now! I have not finished watching the show yet, or reading the manga but I know of Neji’s fate (thanks internet) but from where I stopped to that point, I don’t know what happens with him but I know he’s a sidelined character (who is my favorite on the show) who should get more storylines and because he doesn’t, I read really awesome fan fiction. Neji and Tenten seem like a good couple to me. I’ve seen something about her and Lee but I cannot imagine Lee actually seriously being in a relationship with someone. Neji trusts her, he trains with her knowing that she will not only try her best to beat him but she will also be testing herself as he is the best. I like the mutual respect and understanding of each other and when they’re on missions together, how he always tries to make sure she’s okay. She’s seen him at his worst arrogant self and at his more matured state after his humbling battle with Naruto. I don’t know if he gets romantic with anyone before his death cries but I wish would be her if so. She seems like the only one who can take him at his worst and his best in stride and he seems like he would allow himself to relax and let go a bit around her.
Bonus couples.
Elliot & AngelaMr. Robot
Logan Echols & Veronica MarsVeronica Mars
Jimmy Olson & Chloe Sullivan- Smallville
Nate Archibald & Serena Van der WoodsenGossip Girl (I wouldn’t have minded them together either as she was tolerable with him)
Duckie & AndiePretty in Pink
Sam & Katherine BarlowHoles
Cloud Strife & Tifa LockhartFinal Fantasy VII
Zack Fair & Aerith Gainsborough (I think that’s her last name lol)- Final Fantasy VII


Hope you enjoyed this list! Stay tuned, there might be a companion piece to this for couples who SHOULD NOT have been together, or be together. Should be fun.